AMBIGUOUS WOMEN

How could I choose you when you are not up to my standards?

How could I choose you when you are not up to my conditions?

How could I choose you when you are not up to my terms of a perfectly matched one?

When it’s about me as an individual, where do you individually stand?

When it’s all about me and my family standards,

Where do you and your family do stands?

When I do possess an attractive personality, do you carry a decent one?

When I am educated and carry a good attitude, are you well versed in your profession and carry a shining attitude?

Why do I leave many precious things for you, when you can’t respect me?

Why do I lie upon you when you are not worthy of it?

Why should I make my shoulder strong enough to carry burden, and soft enough for you To keep your head and rest, when you can’t take my weight upon you?

Why do I be always down in front of you and make you always up on me, when you can’t understand my value?

If I think broad and be open, do you stand on my terms of modernity and simplicity?

If I want to change the world and shine like a star, do you believe in my shine and take initiative in the same?

When I say I earn good as well as take care of household activities balancingly, are you able to keep me happy in all ways?

When it comes to my family, I was provided every luxury and whatever I want,

I don’t mind if not you got a home from any source,

But are you able to stand whatever I want in couple of months?

Are you able to fulfill my needs and desires to the highest and top most I want?

When I’m able to take full care of you and love you like divine.

How could I stand with you, when you are unable to stand for me?

How could I sacrifice for you, when you are unable to fight for me?

How could I love you, when you can’t take care of me?

How could I give up myself fully to you, when you are unable to understand me?

How could I open up fully in front of you only, when you can’t hear my unsaid words?

Why do I cry in your pain, when you can’t see the depth in my eyes?

Why do I take care of your home and house holdings, when you can’t prove me with you shoulders to rest upon?

Why do I carry every weight of yours, when you can’t provide me with soft and tenders touches and kisses?

How could I drop out my coverings, when you only think me as a means to satisfy your lust?

How could I love you purely, when your love is just physical desire?

When you can’t feel my pain and cry, why do I lay down for you?

When you take me as a thing of seven, why do I provide you with divine heaven?

Just only after ten meet, how could I trust and believe?

How could I choose, when I don’t fear to loose?

I’m not only here to perform on bed for you,

It is just a bargain for me, may be love for you.

I don’t understand this meaning of love; it’s just a simple and clear bluff.

I can’t believe on the belief of others, after all its all about me, and my carrying forward balancingly.

I don’t want to change for anyone, when I don’t want anyone to change for me.

Changing is simply a compromise, and I don’t want this compromise to be,

I can adjust to all limits but not compromise.

Someone is made as it is what “he is” for me,

And I’m also made for that one, as only what “I’m”.

The one only loves me for what I actually am,

And I would love only one for what he actually is.

Excepting me for just what I carry,

Excepting him for just what he carry.

How could I choose you when you are not meant for me?

How could I choose you when your name is written with someone else?

How could I choose you when you don’t carry an image into my eyes?

How could I choose you when my heart doesn’t agree to pray you?

When I can’t surrender myself to you fully for only your sake,

How could I choose you as fake?

Instead of your thoughts, feelings, wants, desire, and needs,

Have you ever thought of my feelings, wants, desire, and needs?

Rather than playing with my emotions, have you ever thought of handle them with care?

Though I work for you, I sleep for you, I take responsibilities for you, I live for you,

Have you ever only lived for me?

Have you ever thought of taking me to the ninth cloud only in dreams?

Have you ever offered me with mutual support when I needed it the most?

How could I faith that you will be standing with me in my difficult times?

When you were not even standing with me in my simple but tough minutes.

When you left my mistakes fully upon me, didn’t even said few words of sympathy,

How could I believe that you carry me so long till the last breath?

The magical words would have been worth, “don’t worry I’m here, we’ll sort out things”,

When the dark nights were there,

This only could have given the strength to fight,

But you made me even loose everything as saying, “face what you did”.

Are you really the one for me, as all this seems to be imperfect?

Even if compared with my present I’m much happier than this.

Then why should I go with you, and how could I choose you?

You may get all this procedure right, as most of people follow the same.

My parents, you parents, may too have followed.

But I don’t believe in the same lustiness,

How could I choose you, as you get this true, and I get it just only dirtiness?

How could I choose you, when you are not the one for me?

How could you even choose me, when I’m not the one for you? L

Why can’t I choose the one who is actually for me? L

Why can’t I choose my own one?

Why can’t I listen to my heart?

Why can’t I do what I want to do, when I know it’s good, it’s perfect?

Why can’t I live myself to the fullest?

Is this the story of a woman?

Is this the only destiny of a woman?

Is this the only life of a woman?

Only full of sacrifices,

Only full of grief,

Only full of sorrow,

Only full of tears and sad faces L

Is this only woman is made for?

Why can’t we live to our fullest?

Being only a woman, being a lover, a care taker, a sister, a daughter, a mother,

Why can’t she be happy even while playing all these roles?

Why she has to hide her inner woman in order to play all these roles?

Live to the fullest, live life, love life, love nature, love lover, love work and family,

Love happy faces, rub sorrows, rub grief, rub sad faces.

She is the one to spread happy faces all over J

Only happy faces J

Simply happy faces, with inner beauty and peace all over J

I know you are here to hear me.

I know you are here to stand with me.

I know you are here to love me, to tender, care me,

Then why do I choose you?

Who is not for me, who is into me, who do not possess me,

When I’m not yours, then why do I choose you?

A RAY OF HOPE

A ray of hope is visible in the sky,

A ray of hope is seen in the world.

A ray of hope which was unknown is now known to me.

The things went weird and out of control,

The things went strange and hard to handle,

The things went hurting and painful to us,

When the things were mysterious and out of the world.

A ray of hope was then visible,

A ray of hope which blessed with power,

A ray of hope then made us strong,

A ray of hope provided with strength to move forward.

A light is needed in all ours life,

A sight is needed into our eyes,

To be blessed and risen up,

A ray of hope, keep lightened up.

NATURE'S BEAUTY & PRINCE'S LOVE

It blossoms and blinks with a current of shine,

The night becomes so dark with the fright of demon,

The days do truly shine with her glow,

And the monsoon shies with the meadows blew.

The sweetness and the tenderness of the gloom,

The blinking and then flowing of the light,

Gives me a true shine,

It lightens the breath in me,

And makes me little as light.

The world becomes so beautiful with its presence,

Juxtaposing this makes the strength in me.

The flowery gloom with sweet summer,

The sprouting bud with an immense beauty,

It makes me high and low the same time,

The tender, sweet and peaceful life.

Once more you come and make me princess,

Otherwise the world will sue and make me slave,

With you my prince I’ll be the queen.

This world and its people will fill the dark,

The immense beauty comes with the sweetness of the world.

HUM AKSAR KHUD ME DEKHA KARTE HAI

Tere agosh me lipte hue, hum aksar khud ko dekha karte hai.
Zindagi ko haste hue, hum aksar khud me dekha karte hai.
Gar kal na ye sama hoga, esa lagta tha kabhi,
Par fir ye jaha roshan hoga, khuli ankho se, hum aksar khud hi dekha karte hai.
Tere agosh me lipte hue, hum aksar khud ko dekha karte hai.
Zindagi ko haste hue, hum aksar khud me dekha karte hai.

Chahat use pane ki thi, hum sirf tumse wafa karte hai.
Sahenge sab kuch kal agar, hum sirf tumhe paya karte hai.
Tere agosh me lipte hue hum aksar khud ko dekha karte hai.
Zindagi ko haste hue, hum aksar khud me dekha karte hai.

Gar rahe manzil pe ronak-e-sham na a paye, hum fir bhi shama jalaye raahe taka karte hai.
Sama fir se hoga roshan, fir tum aoge, us pal, us pal hum nazare uthaye sirf tumhe taka karte hai.
Aahe bhar bhar na mar jaye us din, yahi fariyad hum karte hai.
Tere agosh me lipte hue, hum aksar khud ko dekha karte hai.
Zindagi ko haste hue, hum aksar khud me dekha karte hai.

LOVELY "WAS" "IS" AND "WILL" BE

LOVELY WAS THE THOUGHT IN WHICH YOU WERE ONLY THERE.

LOVELY WAS THE FEEL WHEN YOU WERE UNTOUCHED.

LOVELY WAS THE SMELL WHEN I SMELLED YOU.

LOVLEY WAS THE WORD WHICH I HEARD, UNSAID.

LOVELY WAS THE CLOSED EYE WHEN I SAY YOU.

LOVELY WAS THE MOMENT WHEN I NEEDED YOU.

LOVELY WAS YOUR PRESENCE WHEN YOU WERE NOT PRESENT.

LOVELY WAS THE HOPE TO MEET YOU, TO SEE YOU, TO GET YOU.

LOVELY IS THE NIGHT WE HAVE DREAMT OF.

LOVELY IS THE DAY WE HAVE SPENT TOGETHER.

LOVELY IS THAT YOU INSIDE ME.

LOVELY IS THE FEEL I HAVE GOT FROM YOU.

LOVELY IS THE SKY UNDER WHICH YOU TOUCHED MY HAND.

LOVELY IS THE MOMENT WHEN YOU KISSED MY HAND.

LOVELY IS MY CHEEK WHEN IT GETS RED AND YOU KISSED IT.

LOVELY IS THE AIR WHICH WE FELT TOGETHER.

LOVELY WILL SURELY BE THE WORLD.

LOVELY WILL BE THE MOMENTS WE HAVE DREAMT OF.

LOVELY WILL BE THE TOUCH WHEN AGAIN YOU WILL DO.

LOVELY WILL BE THE WORD WHEN AGAIN I WILL HEAR THOSE.

LOVLEY WILL BE THE FEEL WHEN I WILL AGAIN FEEL.

LOVELY WILL BE AGAIN THE KISS ON MY HANDS INSIDE YOURS.

LOVELY WILL BE THE HUG WHEN I TRULY NEED IT.

LOVELY WILL BE YOU AND I WITH NO MORE HURDLES.

LOVELY WILL BE I HIDDEN INTO YOU.

LOVELY WILL THE TIME WHEN YOU AND I WILL ACHIEVE EACH OTHER.

LOVELY WILL BE LIFE WITH YOU.

LOVELY WILL SURELY BE THE LIFE WITH YOU.

DESTINY SAYS SO "..."

Let the time decide, let the time grow up,

Let the air blow, and let the sun glow.

You can’t stop the time, you can’t grip the air,

You can’t hide the sun, you can’t sue them up.

The tides will come on the shore and will go back,

Leaving its marks on the land,

To let the world remember that I had came,

Take my marks, and take my name,

I am the one who is not a shame.

To make all those to get totally stunned,

I have come, me dear, as I’m the blunt.

The days do shine, the night are dark,

But the world will glow with a single spark.

I’m here with an immense beauty,

My talent will speak on its own duty.

The earth is round and round, it will go,

The sun has fire and shine, its will go.

The moon is cool and spark, it will throw,

I do possess the words and the magic will go.

Never try to hide, never try to catch,

Never try to grip, because I’ll not stop.

The world will get to know about the word’s owner.

And the name will fly on every shore.

MAY GOD BLESS

The moment I least expected the things to happen; god moved his magic wind round and round at the same moment.

The moment I have started accepting the wind flowing in the direction, god changed the wind into the other direction.

I was happy and accepted the wind blowing hoping it might be for good. Good was going on, mighty was happy, wind was flowing so hard, fragrance was there in the surroundings, but suddenly mind clicked, action took place, and the world seems to be in anger. Struggle is always there in the air, but sometimes air too becomes very hard to feel and to accept. God still was doing “all for good”. It’s all His world and we all are His puppets. We just move on his finger moves. So was, we were moving. The things happening were not in favor, but for good.

“He” always says, “believe in me, have faith on me”, “I am doing everything for your good.” Something might look to be weird and may sound so strange and unacceptable, but change is the only stable truth of life. I tried and accepted the things going on, as I have faith on “Him”. I pray to “Him”, to bless us with strength, power, patience, and sight, to see the unseen.

I LOVE DAD

YOU are the one, who gave me shine,

You are the one, who provides me with joy,

You are the one, who supports me in even bad times,

You are the one, who taught me about fire and water,

You are the one, who make me learn about the sky and earth,

You are the one, who holds me when I was falling,

You are the one, who threw me up and make me fly,

You are the one, who took me into your arms when I desperately needed a hug,

You are the one, who hold me tight when I solidly needed a support,

You are the one, who showed me high sky, and the free birds fly,

You are the one, who charged me up when I was so down,

You are the one, who make me so beautiful even in the dawn,

You are the one, who make me strong but soft and tender,

You are the one, who taught me forgiveness is the biggest jewel of a fighter,

You are the one, who showed me the biggest magical words come true,

Yes my hero, idol, adorable,

I LOVE YOU.

DREAM COME TRUE

Deep in my heart,

I can see an image,

An image which was always there,

Always there for me, only for me,

With no physical outline,

No physical built, just an image,

And image with no guilt.

An image of my man, of my dream boy,

Who truly possess me,

Whom I truly possess,

Who is made for me only,

And I only made for him.

I tried my harder to see the face,

To trace out a built,

But no result came, only with an image.

I wanted to trace him out,

So to trace him in the real world,

But nothing bring out,

And I’m here with my image.

I love him for years,

I know him for year,

We were together in every up and down,

We were together in all joys and sorrows.

And my dream comes true,

When I saw you, when I get to know you,

When I understands you.

My image mingles into you,

I came out with an image in this real world too.

You truly possess the things,

What I have thought,

All my dreams now get into you,

My possession become real,

I now know that the dream can come actually into the real.

I can see myself spreading my hands out to you,

My face bit up to the sky,

Saying the words, “I am all yours my love,

I have given myself fully to you”.

You immediately take me into your arms,

And I’m all hidden into yours.

The world is full of clouds,

All blue and shades of white,

In you, in me, and in everywhere.

The beauty of love, beauty of you

And me, inside you and me,

In the entire world around.